When we read the biblical story of Moses leading the Israelites out of Egypt to the promise land, we look at all the miraculous events God brought about on their behalf and wonder, “how could they keep doubting God?” The truth is we all come to points in our lives when the trials, hardships, and wrongdoings of others pile up against us and we begin to doubt and wonder, “is God really for me, is He on my side at all?” Much like the Israelites in the wilderness, we focus on the discomfort of our current situation and forget all that God has already done for us, or spoken to us.
If we stop and think about it, God has defeated the enemy and made a way when it seemed impossible for us many times before, but we quickly forget those times when we are standing before our life’s newest Red Sea with Pharaoh’s army fast approaching at our backs. We stand there knowing that God can make a way where there seems to be no way, but we wonder if He will, and why He hasn’t done it yet. Then comes the enemy pouring doubt and fear on you, trying to cause you to abandon your promise land and turn back to Egypt, your place of bondage. It happens to us all, but there are ways to strengthen your faith, reinforce your resolve, and remember your journeys progress as well as your God’s faithfulness that granted it.
One way is to stay in the Word of God. The bible is a living Word and it will speak to your situation when you need it most and encourage you to stay the course when all of hell is screaming at you to turn back. An other way, is to stay in prayer and only act upon the clear instructions of God. Do not be pressured into reacting to the devil’s emotional provocations but rather, be encouraged that you are proceeding in the right direction if he so obviously and so desperately wants to stop your forward march. The third way is a bit less practiced but it is a powerful tool that should be encouraged more in our churches and amongst the brethren, and that tool is journaling.
“Thus speaketh the Lord God of Israel, saying, Write thee all the words that I have spoken unto thee in a book.” – Jeremiah 30:2
“Now go, write it before them in a table, and note it in a book, that it may be for the time to come for ever and ever:” – Isaiah 30:8
Get a journal or notebook and make it a point to begin writing down everything that God does for you, every time He speaks something to your heart, and every time He uses someone else to confirm His words and promises. This is not only a tangible way to count your blessings, it provides a record of the everyday miracles that God performs in your life that shows you that He really is for you and is working things together for your good. When things get hard and the doubts come, you can go back and read His Words, Promises, Actions, Blessings, Miracles, and Faithfulness to you. Being reminded of these things will be a great source of strength to you in your weakest moments and a mighty weapon in your arsenal against the attacks and lies of the enemy.
“Remember the word unto thy servant, upon which thou hast caused me to hope. This is my comfort in my affliction: for thy word hath quickened me.” – Psalms 119:49-50
Remembering what God has already done in our lives gives us great comfort and faith to believe Him and wait patiently for the fulfillment of the promises He has given, but not yet fully fulfilled. However, there is a powerful manifestation of His love and faithfulness toward you, that He did for you before you were even born, that is the greatest reassurance of all. If you ever come to a place where you wonder, “is God really for me, does He really love me, does He really have my best interest at heart, will He really intervene for me, will He help me, does He want me?”, remember this:
“What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us? He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things?” – Romans 8:31-32
Begin your journal with a reminder that God has already proven His love toward us through the suffering of Calvary’s cross. If He would come, bleed, suffer, and die for us while we were yet sinners, how much more will He do right by us now that we love and serve Him. Meditate on that thought and know that God truly is for you. Though some hardships are necessary for purifying, strengthening, or for the testimonies sake, He is for us and is working all things together for our good. (Romans 8:28)
Finally, know that God has not forgotten you. While you are journaling about His faithfulness, He is journaling about your brokenness and being moved to action. He is a God of compassion, not one tear falls without Him being right there to catch it. Trust Him and know that He is for you.
“Thou tellest my wanderings: put thou my tears into thy bottle: are they not in thy book? When I cry unto thee, then shall mine enemies turn back: this I know; for God is for me. In God will I praise his word: in the Lord will I praise his word. In God have I put my trust: I will not be afraid what man can do unto me.” – Psalms 56:8-11